Part of the reason, I’m coming to understand, that I have struggled to keep this blog updated, is because I titled the site “your bipolar girl” on a whim years ago, and it’s a cartoonish name that doesn’t really encompass me or all of the things I want to talk about. Yes, I have bipolar disorder. Yes, I am a woman. (I used “girl” when I named the blog because it sounded better than “bipolar woman.” Also, I may have been hate-watching an episode Gossip Girl at the manic inception of this blog.)
What tends to happen, because of the way I framed the blog when I set it up, is that like the diary you only write in when you’re sobbing and have no where else to turn, this blog became my outlet for the things about bipolar disorder I didn’t feel I could say to anyone without being stigmatized or judged. I still do want to say whatever those things may be here in these posts, but there are other things I want to say as well. I want to explain all of the things I’ve figured out over the years. I want to talk about other parts of my life that may not be directly related to bipolar disorder, but cannot help but be informed by it because it’s part of who I am.
And one of the main things I want to emphasize here on this site is that I’ve learned to manage this disease to be just a part of my life, not the central part of my life. “Your bipolar girl” suggest that bipolar disorder is what defines me. I’d like to suggest that while we need to evolve to a society where we don’t need to hide our disease from others, we also need not be defined by it.
In light of all of this, I’m in the process of thinking about what the name of this blog should be. And I really don’t know yet. I have ideas about well-being, balance, moods, the brain, general health. For now, I think I’m going to not worry too much about it–wait until the new title finds me.
If anyone is reading this and feels like there’s a reason I should keep this name or has suggestions for others, leave them in the comments please!